Work, life and my son!!!

I have not seen my son for over a WEEK NOW. This has been horribl to my health and my mental status. I know he had fun this weekend bc he went live on his instagram. I am just happy, i get to text him and reach out to him thru his phone once in a while. I am in the transition of switching jobs again. I have been sticking to one job for about 2 weeks now. Its weird to have one job,but its ok i do not have a problem with it. Just my finances are killing me smalls at the moment. Well anyways my husband reached out to me recently and told me that he made shit on his 1st pay check. I mean i was a little disappointed ,but it is ok. I get it the 1st check is always the shittiest. Anyways i have hope we will move in together soon. I miss my son so much. I miss making time for him to see him and also my husband. I miss being loved every day as a mom and as a wife. Do not get me wrong this vacation has opened my eyes to alot of things that i was doingh wrong in my relationship, not only myself but my husband as well. So my life rn consists of work, school, my roommate and my our dogs. Of course i am always missing my son and my husband. I just feel angry and confused,but i know god willing this will pass. I enjoy watching movies with my husband when we have time and i miss playing fortnite with my son. I just can not believe that all this bs had to happen so we could understand ourselves a bit more. I am growing as a mother, wife and as a woman all at once. My maturity level and my focus is coming into play all at once. I am thank ful to god for this lesson,I hate to admit it, but it is true. At time we have to step out of our comfort zone and be able to take our fight or flight. Let me tell you, leaving my nest and fighting for what i want has been a bit concerning and of course it has left me gaslighted. At the fact that you as an adult have to ovecome obstacles in order to be the best example for your children,your family, and specially yourself. I can relate a whole lot more to everyone that moves out and is trying to make it. Fighting thru the tears and the bs that every day gives us. Stay strong mamas and papas. Also to all those single people out there, you will find your tribe soon.

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