Life is what you make of it!!!

So as all of you know, I am in love with a man, who does not love me the way I love him and his children.I can not stand to be away from this man, it bothers me. Lately he has been coming around a bit more and I am thankful to god for this,but I know we can do better. With time I believe things will get better. On a side note, I got 2 awesome interviews,but of course here we go again with the background always messing with my awesome possibilities and best job offers. I just do not know what to do sometimes,but I am praying that it all works out. i chose this man and I wish he would choose me too. I love his children as if they were my own. I am still praying to god in hopes that we can have a lil set of big ears soon. I have not been able to get pregnant yet,but we are trying. Well I am grateful to god for so many things,even though materialistically it might not be the best results at the moment,but i am just over the world that my mom is better. She has been in the hospital for these past 2 weeks. I lost my first job ,but regained it back not full time but part time. So far I have been learning to coordinate surgeries and also I am going to start learning how to scribe again. Man I was not really looking forward to it,but i do have a kiddo and I have to look out for him and what he needs. I also have to pay for his expensive ass trip that will be here soon. I am just praying to god that he continues to give me health and strength to continue taking care of my family and mainly myself. We all have tough times but honestly life is what you make of it. It can break you or make you. You decide, as a woman who has gone thru so many changes recently, all i can think of is "Why did I not,have the courage to do this sooner?" Well I guess its true god has perfect timing.

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