FAMILY, LIFE AND ADULT RESPONSIBILITIES!!!

I RECENTLY SPLIT FROM MY HUSBAND,SINCE LAST SUNDAY. WE ARE CURRENTLY TRYING TO WORK THINGS OUT. THIS WILL BE WEEK 2 FROM THE SPLIT THIS SUNDAY. I MISS MY BOY DEARLY AND I CAN NOT LIE, I ALSO MISS MY HUSBAND. IT HAS NOT BEEN EASY FOR ME,THESE PAST 2 WEEKS. THE HOUSE IS EMPTY, I HAVE BEEN CLEANING AND TRYING TO DO EVERYTHING I NEED TOO, SO WE CAN TRY TO WORK THINGS OUT. AT THIS POINT I THINK MAYBE WE ARE BETTER OFF ALONE FOR A WHILE. NOT SURE HOW LONG YET? I WOULD LIKE TO SAY A MONTH MAYBE 2,SO WE CAN FIGURE OUT ARE DIFFERENCES. HERE IS THE BIG TWIST,HE IS STAYING IN HIS EX-BABY MOMMA'S HOME FOR THE MEAN TIME? I WAS SHOCKED AND WHY THE FUCK, DOES HE FEEL HE HAS TO LIE TO ME ABOUT THE SITUATION EVERY TIME. NOW MY BEST FRIEND AND ME DECIDED TO MOVE OUT, SO MAYBE WE CAN WORK OUR ISSUES OUT HERE. OF COURSE MY HUSBAND COMES UP WITH THE CLASSICAL EXCUSE"I FEEL COMFORTABLE HERE." WOW ,YIKES. THIS REALLY PISSED ME OFF. I COULD ONLY IMAGINE THAT , HE WOULD WANT TO COME AND SLEEP IN OUR BED AND FOR US TO BE TOGETHER,SINCE I WILL BE MOVING OUT AND WE WILL BE INDEPENDENT FROM MY PARENTS. OF COURSE, HE ALWAYS COMES UP WITH DIFFERENT EXCUSES AFTER THE FACT THAT I AM PURSUING A DREAM AND I WANT MY FAMILY BACK. I WANT TO BE ABLE TO GET TOGETHER EVERY MORNING AND GO TO SLEEP LIKE A FAMILY AS WELL.I JUST FEEL AS IF I WILL NEVER BE ABLE TO ACCOMPLISH MY HAPPINESS AS AN INDEPENDENT ADULT AND A FAMILY MEMBER. LIFE DEFINETLY IS PASSING BY EVERY DAY AND MY SON,KEEPS ON TELLING ME HE WANTS TO COME BACK HOME. I FEEL AS IF THIS WILL NEVER HAPPEN. I KNOW GOD WILLING WE WILL BE TOGETHER SOON AND BE A FAMILY AGAIN. I JUST DO NOT KNOW WHEN THIS WILL HAPPEN AGAIN? I PRAY TO GOD EVERY DAY AND TRY TO KEEP MY FAITH AND HEAD UP. IT GETS HARDER EVERY DAY,I AM JUST THANKFUL TO GOD THAT I GET TO SEE MY SON EVERY DAY IN THE MORNING BEFORE HE GOES TO WORK. I HATE THAT HE IS OVER THERE,BUT MY HUSBAND SAID IT WAS A TEMP PLACE. I TRULY NEED MY FRIENDS AT THIS POINT IN MY LIFE. I AM AN ONLY CHILD WITH NO BIO CHILDREN. I FEEL LOST, I FEEL ANXIOUS AND I FEEL AS IF EVERYTHING IS GOING WRONG. I HAVE ADULT RESPONSIBILITIES AND I MUST KEEP PUSHING EVERY DAY,SO I CAN UPKEEP OUR LIVES AND GET MY SON WHAT HE NEEDS. I KNOW HE MISSES US BEING IN OUR HOME AND UNFORTUNATELY THINGS ARE AT STAND STILL BETWEEN HIS FATHER AND ME. I AM NOT SURE WHERE LIFE WILL TAKE US,BUT JUST KNOW ONE THING. I WILL BE HERE FOR YOU SON AND GOD WILLING WE WILL BE TOGETHER SOON.

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