Teens,Covid and Life PART1

I swear at times, Don't you feel as if the world is coming down on you? I at times do. It can be very peculiar to someone that has been thru this before. Well long story short I do not wish anything bad on anyone,but has anyone ever delt with the super natural? I believe that the situation I am currently in is because of my dear uncle HECTOR. I swear ever since he married his wanna be witch everything started falling apart lil by lil. We started great in a relationship,my husband an I. Now a days it can get very o so very cold at times. I have been feeling sicker than ever. I guess i just need to get back in to the rhythm of trying to work out everyday. I love my teen son,but at times,he can be very difficult. He knows I am stepmom but most of the time,his father likes to speak to his 2 baby mommies. I feel at times as if my husband is what the call "a fuck boy." I do not know where that came from,but that is what every single person i meet, ever tells me. They agree because his actions speak louder than his words. I know you are thinking i am an idiot for sticking around. I stick around because i love my husband and his children as if they were my biological children. So why am i unhappy? I will tell you why, my mother and father, do not take me seriously and think i am still a child. I am not a child anymore. I have had stupid things happen to me since day 1 of my life. I have had to endure so much and it has been a crazy ride so far. I still love each and every one of my mistakes. I had covid back in january and also in June of 2022. It has been a bit of a struggle since this all begin, I was reading 5 things every parent that raised a successful adult would do to their children, in other words what would be the main questions and it caught my attention,that i never ask my son the following "what was the best and worst thing about today?" I was thinking i am a bad mom, really i am because i never asked what was going on and why was i not able to remember to ask,is the worst predicament i could put myself in. I hope all you parents learn and can do a better upbringing that i have ever done. Life just passes us by in a blink of an eye and you will never know what hit you, till you decide to open your eyes.

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